| Friday, March 10th, 2006 |
| 6:23 pm |
i don't want a conversation i want a lifetime. i don't want a wish i want reality. i don't want a dream i want to live. i don't want a fairytale i want to love. |
| Thursday, March 2nd, 2006 |
| 4:04 pm |
one must live and one must die one must breathe one musnt lie one must talk and one must think one must raise their cup and have a drink one must do as one is told one must fit this perect mold one must live and one must die one must tell the truth with lies When we were teenagers we wanted to be the sky |
| Thursday, February 16th, 2006 |
| 7:24 am |
greenlite2engage: you're wise like a prophet greenlite2engage: i was so sad greenlite2engage: my heart sank cmonnlet S diSco: when? greenlite2engage: when you signed off BloodGutsGloryOi: she wears more makeup than a french prostitute cmonnlet S diSco: i adore wut u say bl ACK blondies3: and i adore you, so it evens out SirwillEyum: me too we could disco like theres no tomorrow |
| Thursday, February 9th, 2006 |
| 5:55 pm |
SirwillEyum: darling any thing for love SirwillEyum: but that one is like yor smiling, which is gorgeous. |
| Wednesday, February 8th, 2006 |
| 6:35 pm |
better luck is on my wishlist.
so if i began to spill out all of the endlesss thoughts that dwell within my mind, would that mean that you're listening. and even more so, would that mean that you care? when something overwhelmes. get over it. when someone overwhelmes constantly, contiuously, get rid of them. simple soultion to an ongoing problem, but not so ongoing if you choose to stop it. you are the root to all of your own problems. the honest to god truth you wish you'd never heard, but what's regreting gonna do, put a bottomless empty space inside of you, eating away at your mere exsistance. regreting doesn't get anyone anywhere. i don't regret. i don't think before a speak, a bad mixture, which is part of why i suppose things usually go downhill for me. it seems as if everything with every person starts out amazingly wonderful, but that stage, that amazingly wonderful lustfull beautiful stage soon will end, you see it coming, everything starts to go downhill, and instead of me slowing going down as not to fall, i run for it, and if i happen to trip along the way, i figure i won't even feel it, it'll just be the other person in the siutation worrying if i'm okay, when i'm already up and moving, leaving them hurt, and keeping myself whole. as to be found breaking down weeks later, or days, or hours. each time it's different, the reason for running, the reason for tripping, the reason for finding the hill in the first place. sometimes i think it's stupid to rant and rave, sometimes i think it all isn't worth it, but i'm gonna run for it, no matter what the situation, i know i will. but for once in my life i have found a person who makes me not only not want to run downhill, but not even walk, for once, i don't see a hill for miles, or dare u say ever. there's no hill in sight. and i'm not giving up. no matter what. so once you find a hilless world, you know that's it. it can't get any better. because there's no tripping from here on. |
| Sunday, February 5th, 2006 |
| 6:23 pm |
cmonnlet S diSco: im hungry. greenlite2engage: get something to eat greenlite2engage: we have like greenlite2engage: a shitload of snacks here cmonnlet S diSco: hgfuiahydguid cmonnlet S diSco: come pick me up cmonnlet S diSco: lol greenlite2engage: its on my to do list greenlite2engage: at the top greenlite2engage: like near one cmonnlet S diSco: wut number is it? greenlite2engage: maybe .5 or 1 cmonnlet S diSco: :-D greenlite2engage: like im scared if i drop it any lower greenlite2engage: i'll be in the process of it cmonnlet S diSco: <3 cmonnlet S diSco: you make me smile :] greenlite2engage: yesss |
| Tuesday, January 24th, 2006 |
| 6:52 pm |
cmonnlet S diSco: of course uve felt love cmonnlet S diSco: u love ur parents cmonnlet S diSco: dotn u? HoboBob000 0: it's a different kind though HoboBob000 0: it's like the trust kind cmonnlet S diSco: no. its mustlove cmonnlet S diSco: its love thats needed. its a must, a have to, a requirement. cmonnlet S diSco: its a given, its a decision. cmonnlet S diSco: but do u know wut real love is? HoboBob000 0: I said I didn't haha HoboBob000 0: do you? cmonnlet S diSco: its love that u dont choose to have. u cant change it. u cant stop it. u feel it. and u either hate it or like it. but its inevitable. |
| Saturday, January 7th, 2006 |
| 1:21 pm |
as mintues count hours the miles seperate i hope you never forget the tapping at your window where any preconceived ideas are thrown away. i was lost in you. weeks could have passed for all i knew. |
| Friday, January 6th, 2006 |
| 1:35 pm |
images burnt into my brain. sharper than knives, this cat-scan fever consumes us all. this lump in our throat grows bigger. sooner or later this cancer becomes you. hatred towards each other and a soiled friendship down the drain. years later the fear of starting over has killed me inside. don't bother. your lies bleed together. what you said doesn't matter. rumors that fill this room. save your drama for the soaps. your heart beats when the bullshit starts. the stories grow like tumors inside my heart. your words are a sickness that there's no cure for. they hit the ears of others and spread like a virus. how can i ever start believing what i am hearing? the germs take you over, the words become your savior. you can't breathe without it. i'd love to hear you speak on your own. i'd love to hear you speak the truth. |
| Wednesday, January 4th, 2006 |
| 10:01 pm |
silence is like a broken heart my heart is a sore, but even charred faces crack smiles |
| Tuesday, December 27th, 2005 |
| 7:06 pm |
I WANT TO MEET
SOMEONE WHO WILL WALK WITH ME
UNTIL THE END OF TIME.
AND NOT EVER QUESTION
WHERE WE ARE GOING
OR WHEN WE WILL GET THERE.
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| Wednesday, December 21st, 2005 |
| 5:45 pm |
THE "I" SURVEY I Live: in a bottomless pit of mistakes. I Work: at school. I Talk: too much. I Wish: too many things. I Enjoy: lust. I Look: for things I've overlooked. I Find: i duno I Smell: Nico's cologne. I Listen: to Hollywood Undead too much. I Hide: my true feelings. I pray: I don't pray. I Walk: anywhere my legs will take me. I Write: songs. I See: my computer screen. I Sing: The Tide. I Laugh: a lot. I Can: love. I Watch: movies. I dream: that I'll change. I Want: Tad to be my boyfriend. I Cry: most nights. I Love: Theodore. :] I Sometimes: feel sorry for myself. I Touch: boys. I Hurt: every guy that tries to get close to me. I Fear: that I won't change. I Hope: I'll learn from my mistakes. I Break: some promises. I Quit: school. I Drink: Red Bull. I Hug: Nico a lot. I Miss: Tad. I Forgive: a lot of people. I Drive: a cement truck. I Have: zero piercings. I Don't: like candy. I Believe: in eating. I Feel: like shit. I Know: I love you. I wonder: if it's okay. |
| Wednesday, November 23rd, 2005 |
| 4:45 pm |
i dont trust his cut, the effect's never as high as the markup SHUIAGHUSGUYAHGIUA. done. bye. |
| Friday, November 11th, 2005 |
| 9:43 am |
i love mornings, becuase nothings happned yet, so anything is to come. and every morning, you get a new chance to be great. but when you dont try, how do you suppose you'll ever succeed. so good morning, have a nice day. <3 |
| Tuesday, November 1st, 2005 |
| 8:53 pm |
put it all to shame.
Falling victim to the public's prey
boyfriend for one day.
and i already wish i was single.
i'm so horrible to people.
i miss my best friend.
i want him to be out of juvy. :[
things suck.. Current Mood:  depressedCurrent Music: the honorary title |
| Saturday, October 29th, 2005 |
| 9:15 pm |
update of anything interesting past two weeks.
thurs. nico and pierrce came over.
i found out tad was in jail.
fri. game with diego. saw nico too.
sat. diego and i went to the village. nico eric and pierrce came over.
sun. nico came over.
wed. nico and i went to the village.
thurs. nico and pierrce came over.
fri. diego came over. julia me and natania went to dinner.
sat. natania and i went shopping.
k.bye.<3 Current Music: HOLLYWOOD UNDEAD |
| Sunday, October 23rd, 2005 |
| 10:59 am |
sometimes perfection can be perfect hell.
things suck.
i miss my best friend.
at least he'll be out for my birthday..:[ Current Music: HOLLYWOOD UNDEAD |
| Sunday, October 16th, 2005 |
| 7:00 pm |
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| Monday, October 10th, 2005 |
| 7:53 pm |
Live life by the moment Off in a daydream Vast and wide Everything seemed perfect In my mind and in my heart Standing alone with you on the dance floor Pause in time so i can take a mental picture of how you look tonight Right this moment things are perfect&& It'll be the last time i see you Cause things are no longer the same Even tomorrow is far from today Live life by the moment Even in the blurs of days So stay still one last time So i can remember you |
| Wednesday, October 5th, 2005 |
| 4:40 pm |
"They only had eyes for one another,
as if their time apart had made them hungry for each other
in a way that could be conveyed solely by a glance,
forbidden to be expressed in words."
hiaohgaioghauigshguiarfhi :-/ Current Music: deathcab |
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